So me and Stef broke up. I'd be lying if i said i wasn't pleased, but I wish we could have stayed friends, but she said she doesn't stay friends with Ex's and since i kind of instigated the break up I can't blame her for not wanting to hang out anymore. I think she took it harder then she let on, but i do have a huge ego so that could be all me. I think things got too rushed and that's why it didn't work.
Anyway I think I make a better single person, and I'm happy to be that way, friends pretty much rock my world relationships are crazy until you meet the right person.
See you guys more now ^^

got some bad news about work so tonight i'm going out drinking my budy chase said he'd drive so everything should be fun and safe, i'm gonna get my drink on like crazy, and karaoke till it's over XD
omg i love to drink and party ^^, but i rarely drink so maybe that's why i loves it. anyway, tonight is going to be fun! I have spoken! so let it be written so let it be done XD

hope everyone else is having a good night. I'll go into more work related issues when i'm not half cut. later you guys.

sorry to everyone who i've neglected on lj for so long. I've been crazy with girlfriend and ignoring the world.
I'm still feeling a bit smothered by the new girlfriend. I think I need to find a way to have me time. tonight has thus far been just me chillin at home ^^ i watched lots of TV and made myself yummy foods. now i'm warming up the truck and i'm going to hit the gym, I have a massive headache and the gym seems to help that oddly enough.
I haven't really done much other then karaoke and hang with the gf. tonight after the gym I think I'm going to pick a song to play and just play the crap out of it for a week.
anyway it's hard staring at the screen with my eyes hurting so to the gym i go

I wanna scream, and fight things lately, I'm so frustrated, with everything!

I need a martial art again NOW!

sorry for the bitch post with no specifics, hope everyone is well.

So i went in and bought myself a 2004 chevy silverado extended cab 4x4 truck! It's super nice XD I can't wait to pick it up tomorrow at 1 pm. I'll take pictures and such to.
I'm so happy! on another note it's snowing here like crazy XD w00t!

I celebrated quite heavily for your b-day nei <3333 you rock, sorry i can't make you banners but i think you're amazing!!!!!!!!! i wish you many more fandoms to fangirl over <333 you're one of my favorite lj friends and for sure the longest <333 be safe and magical forever

I just woke up and watched a movie and right at the end of it my roommates mom comes over. She wants to talk to her son, he comes downstairs, they proceed to bitch each other out in whispers and I laugh because I know it's because he missed church today.

I am soooo thankful my mom isn't like that.

I cleaned up the house all by myself. I was going to ask for a hand, but i was just in the mood to clean so I did it solo. Besides putting up with his mother I thought my roommate deserved a break XD

Anyway I just wanted to share with everyone that moms are funny, and it's not the religions that are crazy it's the people.

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I like Morning Musume, and Rika Ishikawa is cute and adorable, do I really need a reason?

I felt so good yesterday, like a giant weight is lifted off me. I think everything is sorted out, and I'm sleeping pretty good, though I'm still staying up too late.
I went and worked out some more, because I felt like it. On the way my van died, so I got to push it into the parking lot, stupid van. I think I'm going to be getting a truck soon, that's in good shape and stuff, because you need one in the winter here.
I'm thinking I need to take more pictures, and maybe post on youtube again. I still feel a creative urge, I gotta find a way to fill it.
anyway i'm off to work

Lately I've been feeling like shit, just plain horrible emotionally and physically. I deserve to be for what I've been doing, Dating a married girl, may feel like oh yay someone likes me. I knew it was wrong, I ignored myself, and "myself" does not like to be ignored. When I'm depressed I stop doing all the things I like doing, the things that make me happy, So then I feel worse.

Fortunately, I've stopped Dating this girl, We never went further then kissing, and we are not doing anything anymore. I won't even sit beside her when she comes to karaoke, I'll sit at the same table, but sitting next to her makes it to easy to just put my arm around her, and that's not something I want even if i think i do at the time it's being done.

I haven't been sleeping good since all this started, I couldn't sleep tonight because I've had such a headache all day I just went to the gym and ran and worked out, and now I feel focused on the more important things, myself!

I went to the grocery store after working out, and bought healthy good food for my lunches this week. I've been eating junk food for like this whole month.

Now time for some relaxing sleep with good dreams!